“The Olympics is the direction, but happiness is the goal.”
This is something my roommate/teammate/best friend Jen Cotten said to me last night, and it really spoke to me. Lately we have been talking a lot about our goals. Do we NEED goals? Or should we just live second to second and go with the flow? Is that being passive? We have been questioning if it’s possible to live in the present and absolutely love ‘what is’, yet still have goals and aim for more. Is hoping for more than what you already have arguing with reality and living in the future? I’m still not sure what the answer to this question is, but I think I’m getting closer to figuring it out.
If you were to ask me what my goal is, I would say “to compete at the Olympics” without even thinking about it. If you were to then ask me why my goal is to compete at the Olympics, the look on my face would be no different than if you just asked me how to apply eye-liner. I have absolutely no idea. Not the slightest. Here I am, striving towards this goal and working my butt off to achieve it, yet I have no idea why it’s even my goal in the first place. Why do I want to compete at the Olympics? Why do I want to compete at the Olympics? Why do I want to compete at the Olympics?
Because it will make me happy.
But.. I’m happy right now! Here’s another quote from the wonderful Jen Cotten after a fun-filled day yesterday.
“I am so happy right now, I can’t imagine ever being any happier. Even if I made the Olympics, it wouldn’t make me any happier than I already am in this moment because I’m already at the highest possible level of happiness!”
I agreed completely.
So, maybe my goal isn’t to make the Olympics. Maybe that’s just the direction. Maybe my goal is to be happy, and to continue to be the best that I can be – to continue on my journey of personal growth and discover what else makes me truly happy. Maybe my goal is to continue to absolutely love every second of training and competing and life in general, and to keep this burning passion that I have for this sport and everything else in this world.
With love and happiness as my compass, there’s no doubt in my mind of where I can end up.
See you in Rio! I’ll be the one smiling the world’s biggest smile because I’ll already be the happiest girl in the world.