Well, you might be wondering what happened to me. I’ll tell you what happened.. SCHOOL! SCHOOL HAPPENED! The week of final exams absolutely consumed me but guess what? Yesterday I wrote my last exam so I am officially done the school year, and let me tell you it feels so good! I took a reduced course load this year and I am glad that I did it. Rather than struggling to stay afloat while balancing 5 courses, training, and competing, I decided I need to slow down. Although taking fewer courses means it will take me 5 years to graduate rather than 4, I am very happy with the decision that I made. Rather than aimlessly memorizing stats just well enough to be able to pass a course exam, I was able to actually feeling myself being EDUCATED since I wasn’t so busy with a full course load. I was able to put 100% into my athletic training but still put 100% into school too, and that felt really good because I absolutely hate knowing I can’t give something my all, and in the past that has been the case with school because I simply didn’t have the time. Everything really clicked for me academically this year – I am confident that I am in the right field because I really enjoy what I’m studying. I guess it just took me taking a step back and slowing things down to realize that.
Anyways enough about school. Last week I wrote about my excitement heading into my season opener. Well, unfortunately that didn’t go as I envisioned. The weather at the Ohio State meet was pretty horrendous (I’m not being dramatic, there were snowflakes) and I ended up faulting out. That was my first time ever faulting out of a meet and although I momentarily questioned my Clutch Caro capabilities when it happened, I wasn’t upset for too long. Why? I had a killer jump. I was literally frozen and miserable yet still I managed to put together a good performance. It’s unfortunate that it was a fault but I was just happy knowing that I am capable of something big, despite what the results page said. The day after the Ohio State meet there was a small meet here at Western and my coach agreed to let me jump since I didn’t get a measurement in the day before. Unfortunately, the exact same thing happened the next day – lots of faults. But guess what? Just like the day before, I wasn’t at all mad. In a nutshell, I felt amazing. My jumps felt completely different than they ever have. We measured my last jump (even though it was a fault) just for peace of mind and for sake of knowing that I am capable of big jumps, and.. well.. I now know that I am capable of big jumps. I won’t say what the number on the measuring tape was because technically it doesn’t exist (since it was a fault and all!), but all I will say is I am very excited to get a LEGAL jump measured because it is going to be big!
So there you have it! Those two meets were a great learning experience for me. Who knew that faulting out of two meets in a row could give you so much confidence! It would be easy for me to be discouraged and worried about what happened – a couple years ago I probably would have thought it was the end of the world. But I FEEL literally the best I have ever felt. I carried that feeling through my training this week and had some of the best practices I’ve ever had. So really, a lot of good came out of what happened at those two meets. The ony word I can think to describe how my jumping feels right now is ‘crisp’. Everything just feels right, and it is a great feeling.
I’m not competing this weekend but I’m back in full force next week. Have a great weekend everyone!