I have always told myself that eventually I will start a blog. I always thought the ‘eventually’ would be when I feel like I’m a good enough athlete to actually have a blog. Blogs are for important people! No one wants to follow my life. These are the thoughts that I’ve had despite really wanting to start a blog for a couple of years now. This summer, I was very close to getting a blog going when I read Jack Canfield’s book ‘The Success Principles’. In this book, he suggests the idea of ‘acting as if’, that is, living your life as if you have already achieved everything you ever wanted. If you want to be a millionaire, act like one. If I want to be a world class athlete, I should act like one. World class athletes have blogs, I thought. I was literally on the wordpress.com website ready to go when suddenly I was overcome with doubt and changed my mind – “maybe when I’m better”, I thought.
This past indoor season I have learned a lot about confidence, unfortunately more specifically, lack of confidence. I really saw the detrimental effect that my lack of confidence had on my performances. If I’m putting the message “I don’t really think I’m good enough” out into the universe, obviously I am not going to achieve my goals because the Universe will work in a way to make my reality line up with my thoughts (I shouldn’t get too into this in my first blog post, I don’t want to scare people off. Let’s just say the Universe is an incredible thing!). I recognize now how self-defeating it is for me to hold the thought “I’m not good enough to have a blog”. Needless to say I am ready to turn my career around and really do something special this outdoor season. In order to do that, I need to believe that I am a GREAT athlete. And GREAT athletes have blogs! So here I am!
That lengthy explanation of how I ended up here probably wasn’t necessary, but I think it is a great lesson and it would be selfish of me not to share it with others! It’s uncomfortable to be so raw, especially in a sport where believing in yourself is key. It feels odd to admit that I often lack confidence but who am I kidding, don’t we all? Don’t we all have times in our lives when we feel like we just aren’t good enough to reach our goals? There is nothing wrong with that provided that you recognize how damaging these thoughts are and do something about it. This right here – this blog – is me ‘doing something about it’.
As much as I started this blog for me, I also hope that it could be of use to other people. First of all, I am fortunate to have a lot of people following me on this journey of mine. The majority of these people I have known my whole life and are from my amazing Northern community of Espanola. I hope to reach out to even more people, because I could really use all the support I could get. I hope to use this blog to help people follow me in my journey. Second of all, I really like to make people feel good about themselves and provide a little bit of inspiration here and there! Through my journey so far I have learned a ton about myself and life in general, and I hope that by sharing these lessons I can help others.
I have included a MY STORY section on this website because like I state there, you would never hand someone a book opened on page 107 and expect them to follow along. I wanted to start from the very beginning so people who are interested in reading my blog have a better understanding of what has shaped me and what drives me. It is hard to understand someone’s present without knowing their past.
Anyways, if you’re reading this it means I haven’t changed my mind about this whole ‘blog’ thing yet – yay.